This past Saturday we dropped C off to live with his dad! Oh how sad it was. But we had a really good week leading up to it! We had a super fun going-away party on Monday with Melinda, Robbie & Graham, and with the Bonhams. We had balloons and dinner and decorated sugar cookies! It was a great setting for the Bonhams to say their good-byes. They have been so supportive and loving of C, so it was important that they got their own special opportunity to spend time with him.
Throughout the rest of the week we had people stop by to give lots of hugs and kisses to C, and it was really nice. We had LOTS of FaceTime with our family out of state family. We had tons of family time, staying up late, watching movies, and playing playing playing!
Mark and I bought a special book to send with C. It's a book that perfectly describes our love for C and we wrote a message on the inside cover, and hopefully it's something he can keep forever. I thought about taking a picture so that I could post it on here...but in the end, I felt like it was just too personal and sensitive to share those thoughts with everyone.
The book is called "Love You When".... http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/love-you-when-linda-kranz/1110061035?ean=9781589797031
I washed all of his tiny socks and tiny shirts. Carefully packed up his special toys and his blanket. And then closed his bedroom door so that I didn't have to look at the bag sitting there!
Saturday morning we got in the car and cried all the way to drop him off. Rough. That's one way to explain it. The drop-off didn't take long, but his dad was emotional and did thank us for taking such good care of him. Even being so little, C still knew something wasn't right. He's not used to seeing us cry like that, so he just sat there looking very concerned. That was hard to see. I hope that he had sweet little angels to help calm and reassure him.
What a sweet boy he is, and we miss him so much!
We have no regrets, and we wouldn't have changed anything. But this was all a huge learning experience for us and there are things we will do differently next time.
But in the end we feel like we did exactly what we were meant to do - we gave him the love and nurtured him, helped him to grow and heal, and then we let him go! Yes it is extremely difficult (even harder than we ever expected), but how rewarding it has been. We have grown so much. Learned so much. This little boy stole our hearts from the moment we laid eyes on him...he will always be "our son"...he made us parents. We will always cherish his sweet spirit in our home.
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