"You are not forgotten.
Sisters, wherever you are, whatever the circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you, with an infinite love."
—President Dieter F. Uchtdorf
These words have spoken to my heart, and could not have come at a better time. Infertility is a funny thing- some days I'm as happy as a clam at high tide, other days I wake up with darkness in my heart for no apparent reason. Satan creeps in and takes hold, and my days quickly become consumed with sadness and self-pity. I usually allow myself these days, because in my mind I feel like I deserve to have my moments of sadness. But I've felt this way everyday for the last 4 or 5 days...something that is quite unusual for me. I couldn't seem to shake the feeling that I had simply been skipped over by my Heavenly Father. I would cry. I would tell myself that we've sacrificed so much, and have had nothing in return.
I am ashamed to even admit that. Because I can see how greatly we have been blessed. How terrible it is that I can feel like my Heavenly Father has not blessed me, simply because I do not have a child. It's selfish.
I'm so grateful for President Uchtdorf's talk. I know that he didn't write this talk with me in mind, but right now I really feel like Heavenly Father has seen my discomfort, and he has answered the prayers of my heart. I am not forgotten. This is my testimony, and I know that I have a loving Heavenly Father. He does hear, and does answer our prayers. He knows us individually, and he wants us to be happy.
